I must step from the shadow of lies and make a confession. No! Hear me out. If I don’t say this in one breath, I might not say it all. And I must tell you everything. I value honesty. And If I can’t be honest with you, then whom can I be honest with?
First, you are wonderful in so many ways. You say wonderful things. You open my mind to new worlds and a new way of thinking. At times you make me laugh. We’ve shared some amazing moments together. I know I am a better person (and writer) because of you. Honest.
But . . .
This is hard for me to admit . . .
I love you, but I’m not IN love with you.
The chemistry between us is lukewarm at best, which hinders my climax and personal growth. No! Please don’t cry. Please. It’s not you, it’s me. Well, that’s a lie . . .but I want it to be true. Surely that counts for something, right? But let’s face it, you and I are not a perfect match. I want a chapter who values collaboration and treats me as an equal. And extends that respect to my friends (characters). You want a partner you can bully and ignore. This difference in interpersonal philosophy is at the root of our constant bickering. You think the story should go this way. I want it to go that way. You won’t listen to my ideas; yet, want me to listen to, and accept yours. Continuing in this vein will only lead to impenetrable resentment.
I wish that was the only ghost chilling the air between us. Alas, it is not. I am painfully aware of the coup you tried to stage. How could you go behind my back and try to convince my characters to join your team? I would never do that to you. Never! Why did you think they would be loyal to you? You routinely ignored their concerns, seeking the fulfillment of your own desires.
Now, I’m not one to yell or throw computers. However, I am one to confront the truth and act in accordance. It is time we part ways. I will help you gather your belongings (words).
Thank you for helping me see what I really want and need. Thank you for giving me the strength to demand the best for me and my characters.
All the best,